shadows again

I'm pretty stoked with this wee lassie... I think the move back to drawing on the painting was a good one, my painting was getting too abstract-y and flat looking and I was getting really frustrated... So I think this is a good direction to be heading in. I'm really struggling to write my essay at the moment, it's like I haven't really had to think an original academic thought in so long that I just can't do it! I know what I want to say but I keep talking in circles around it and never actually getting to the point. It's rainy and cold which is good in terms of there being nothing to pull me outside and away from the essay writing... but then the warmth inside is making my head even fuzzier. I don't know why I never pick a topic I actually have a lot to say about... Or maybe I just don't have a lot to say about anything... I've been feeling like that a lot lately, that I have all these interests but they're all kind of superficial in terms of what I really know about them, but how do you get to know so much about one thing? I feel I just need to think more, but it's harder than you would imagine. For me anyway. It's like there's something blocking my heart and brain from working together to come up with a solution...?